Hello Again Peoples...
I don't know who even reads these things anymore, but I've decided it doesn't even matter.
Right now life is: different. Not what I expected. Not what I planned. And in some ways, not what I want. Mostly I find myself confused. That's probably the best way to describe it. Just trying to find that happy-medium, which seems odd because I've always been planned, always prepared and had an idea of what I was doing and who I was/wanted to be. The people I had around me, what I thought they meant to me, where and how we'd spend our lives together...it's all out the window. Some have stepped up, some have stepped away. There are NO more constants. And now, I find myself being everything but planned and prepared. The part that frustrates me the most is not knowing the answers anymore. Not having control. The biggest question I have now isn't so much of what I want in the future, but what I want now. Who I want to be NOW. Who I want to be in the lives of NOW. NOW is the focus. And honestly, it's quite possibly the first time in my life that it has been. Wish me luck with that!
posted by E-A @ 6:14 PM
2 Comments:
you are smart.
oh shit. i'm not anonymous. i'm amanda i don't know how this things works! haha i'm awesome. don't worry erin allen. you will be just fine. Nothing ever goes according to plan anyways, so whats the point in having one? It will just get screwed up & then you will be upset that you wasted time making a plan, executing a plan, & worst of all-having a plan fail. so just set a goal & a time frame & see what happens. you cant set up all the steps b/c you have never done them before-so you don't know what they are. does that make sense?
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